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2月11日 Purpose?A man without a purpose is like a ship without a rudder, a waif, a nothing, a no man....Thomas Carlyle. What is my purpose for living? What is it am I suppose to be doing? What do I want to be? What do I want for the rest of my life? Or Who the heck am I?Like me am sure majority if not all of us have pondered those questions. U know u feel as if something is missing in ur life, u feel as if there is a big black empty hole in ur life and that life is boring and so routine. U have that feeling where u want something more and the things that ur doing aren't comforting or satisfying, and u keep searching and searching but nothing extraordinary happens. Well am no longer searching cuz I have found that extraordinary phenomenon. His name is Jesus and he is my Saviour, my Christ , my everything. I no longer have to wonder in a strange land to find my selfworth, I no longer have to wait for man's approval, I no longer have to lay in bed and cry my eyes out for things that don't matter. I've found my reason for living, my joy giver, my source of strength HALLELUJAH its Jesus! My purpose in life is to serve my God with my whole heart. Knowing ur purpose simplifies ur life. So find out what ur purpose in life is and stop looking at ur circumstances cuz it will defeat u if u keep ur eyes on it. Give God a try and be free. 4月29日 Is there anything out of my reach?For those of you that know me know that I love my food:). Yesterday after church I hanged around till late and I went for a walk around the church grounds. On my journey I spotted a tall raspberry tree that was loaded with raspberries. Well u know wa happen next, I went raspberry pickn. All the raspberries that were within my grasp were pinkish redish and you know those one are not so sweet but very sour. I was bug man so I kept looking up n down and around the tree and low and behold I spotted some dark purple ones way up. The dark ones are the sweetest ones but man they were so high up. So I stood there analyzing the situation and strategically planning the demise of those dark raspberries (muuuhhhaaaaa) Yea they were going down no matter how high they were. Hungry belly knows no boundaries and has no limits, well atleast mine doesn't lol. Sad thing is I wasn't really hungry cuz we had a nice fellowship meal, I just wanted some raspberries lol. Anyway I found a way to get to those berries. I went deep into the tree and pull down a branch that lead to another branch that lead to those dark berries (thank goodness for long arms lol). Yay I got the berries and all of that work was worth it. I know some of you are like oh k whats the point of this story. Again for those of you that know me know that I always use situations like this as a analogy to life or life circumstances. As we all know life is truly a journey and at times its not a pleasant one. To me the raspberry tree represents life and the raspberries represents goals, friends, relationships etc. When I started to pick the raspberries I was happy to even eat a raspberry but then as I got more and more they were leaving a bitter sour taste in my mouth and I was getting tired of them. Those raspberries looked good and ripe because they were redish, pinkish. You know they appealed to the eye & gut at first glance lol. To me those redish pinkish raspberries represents mediocrity and complacency. Some times we settle for mediocore goals, mediocore friendships and we get too complacent in the position of life we are in because we don't want to work hard for what we relly want. The dark purple raspberries represents the best things that life has to offer like the best relationships, greatest goals, you know things that we think are out of our reach. And we all know that the best things in life don't come easy and cheap. You have to work real hard for it and literally put some sweat n blood into what you want.You also have to take time analyze the situation and come up with a plan that will work best for you. Always think before you act, sometimes its not good to be impulsive (which is a lesson am learning every day). Am not saying that being implusive is a bad thing but that its just not needed for all situations, hope am not contradicting myself lol. I know some take short cuts to get what they want. With the dark raspberries I could have gotten some lil kid do my dirty work for me or better yet batted my eyelashes to some guy and play the role of the helpless damsel in distress (lol). But I didn't I did it on my own and enjoyed it. Sometimes when you do short cuts you end up not enjoying what you have accomplish, I know some might not share the same sentiment (different strokes for different folks). ANyway to cut this short: The best things are sometimes out of our reach and because we are lazy and complacent we don't bother to obtain them. Things in life will appear far away, out of our reach but with strategic planning, patience and most of all God's guidance anything can be obtained, accomplished etc. Peace and don't ever think that anything is out of your reach my friend;) ...and am outtie:) 4月19日 mmm emotions(8) just the emotions taking me over caught up in sorrow..(8)
Sometimes I wish I was a robot emotionless and don't have to worry about dealing with emotions. Emotions like hatred, anger, resentment, envy, depression...
Right now am feeling a mixture of emotions. When they started I did not know why but as time goes by and I examine myself the answer came to me. One emotion can lead to the road of many other emotions.
I am in ball of mess right now, I've talked to God about it and am waiting for divine intervention. God I need healing, I need you to rid me of this feeling before it manifest into something real ugly. My heart aches, tears on my pillow night after night and a smile on my face during the day. Alas what a hypocrite double face person I am. The exterior displays a total different story from what is truly going on in the inside. Father rid me of this burden that is paralyzing me and turning my heart into a dark hole. I don't know how long I can keep up this facade.
I know father that this is the work of the enemy because these emotions are not of God. God is love! Father fill me with ur Holy spirit and let me be as loving as you are. Give me patience Oh Lord, and strengthen my fragile heart.
Sometimes I feel so alone and lonely and it makes me real depress...
Thank you Jesus for being my friend and for never leaving or forsaking me. I know that you will see me through this dark period. 3月18日 This is my change of addressI have moved out from Beggars Alley, located at 2 Poverty Lane at the corner of Bleak and Buster Circle. As of today, I have a brand new home! My new address is: Living Well on 3 Abundance Drive, located at the corner of Blessings Street and Prosperity Peak. No longer will I allow myself to travel on Begging Peter to pay off Paul rout, located at a dead end Intersection called: I don't have. it connects with Burrowers Junction. I no longer hang out at Failure's Place, near Excuses Avenue, next to Procrastination Point. I've moved on to an Upscale Community called Higher Heights with unlimited potential and opportunities for me to succeed. Look at me, each day that I'm awake, I am thankful to be a product of my new environment. All my clothes are tailor made. I'm dressed in life's finest. let me introduce you to all of them: Conceive, Believe, Act on, Have Faith, Be Persistent, and always be Prepared to Achieve. Life is good because God is good! Care to change your address? There are many vacancies! This is what I'm talking about putting God first and not letting other people control "your" destiny! Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections. God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but HE did promise strenght for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way. ---Author Unkonwn 3月6日 My "Blood diamond" insightWow its been a while since I've did a blog entry. well here is the latest.
I recently watch Blood diamond couple nights ago and I must say am really impressed with its contents. They should have won for best movie. If u haven't watched it as yet, am gonna adivse that u do and stop reading this note cuz I don't wanna spoil it for u. Oh if u can't handle seeing alot of ppl dying don't watch it. Anyway the movies take place in some where in Sierra Leone, Africa and is basicly about diamonds being obtain at any cost, even the cost of life, hence the name "blood diamond". So anyway this guy name Solomon and his family had basicly kinda a good life. Ya know wife doing good kids nice n healthy etc. Until one faithful day he and his famliy were dealt a bad card. On that day rebels attacked his camp, started killing people for fun and then kidnapped him. His family got away. So solomon was taken away to work in a diamond mine. Rebels financed the purchase of weapons with illicit diamonds extracted from mines they controlled. One day while working in the mine Solomon found a nice pink diamond. Long story short he hid the diamond, son kidnapped by rebel crew and turn into a child soldier, family in refugee camp but at the end he used that diamond to get his family into london and he also end up getting some cash along with that. I used blood diamond as an analogy to lets say being a christian or life itself. You know ur living ur life hassle free no trials but then out of nowhere ur hit with a disaster and ur whole world is turned upside down. But during that process u hold on and find a diamond, lets say u find that diamond inside of u( strength, courage, hope etc) and on the outside ur rewarded for enduring( lets say school, gatta work hard to get those grades and go through alot of crap while in uni. but hey at the end u get ur degree). See trials come to test how strong we are, they come in a way to "crtique" our character. In the movie Solomon kept fighting and was persistant, he was motivated by his family, they were in a sense his source of strength. So question to ask, what is your motivation?? who or what is the source of your strength?? Nothing in life is ever easy and there is always a price to be paid. Are you willing to pay the price?? 12月25日 MERRY CHRISTMASMERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND A BLESSED NEW YEAR!!!
Remember that Jesus is the reason for the season and not santa clause. 6月18日 MY Personal Prayer of VictoryMy My, it has been a long time since the last blog entry. Dang!! Well I have been home now for 6 weeks and so far by Gods undying grace it has been a blessing:) I have encountered some good and bad events but for all I thank God and give him the due glory. Each trail and tribulation I go through is not for myself alone but for others and also to bring glory to the father that created me. Am presently working at my old place of employment and utilizing the computer and internet there since my net at home is dissconnected lol.
ANyways I came across this Prayer and I want to share it with you.
I come in the name of Jesus, my Resurrected Savior and Lord whose I am and whom I serve and at the mention of whose name, every knee shall bow and every tongue should confess as Lord. I come in His name.
I decree and declare that in the name of Jesus, Gods original plans and purpose of satan for and against my life.
I pray in Jesus name that God's anointing destroys every yoke in my life and that my soul,spirit and body now function in order according to God's original plan.
I pull down strongholds, cast down vain imaginations and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, I over ride and veto every injunction, directive and mandate which opposes the specific will of God for my lofe, my family and my future.
I forbid any and all opposing activities of any satanic personalities with destructive and disruptive assignments concerning my life and I declare war against them NOW!!
Right now I release my name into the atmosphere Cynthia Louis and summons prayer warriors, intercessors and prophetic watchmen/women to pick me and other persons up in the realm of the spirit.
AMen
4月19日 Filled with the Holy SpiritI got up at 4 tuesday morning to go use the rest room. I went back to bed but I could not sleep, I started to toss n turn feeling resltess. Some time when I would wake up early so I would read the Bible but I have not done that lately, tooo lazy I guess. So my mind went on that but then I was like mmm I wa sleep. So I tried going back to sleep but I still couldn't. What happened next was kinda strange...the next thing I know my elbows are on my pillow and my hands are up and I was praising God. I was like wow what is going on. I did not feel as if I had control of my body. It felt very strange and honestly I was getting scared but I continue to praise God after that I got my bible and read Psalm 92. As I was reading it out loud I felt my voice was fading, and I felt airy like light headed. First thought came to mind "Jesus is it time for me to die" but I was like if its time am gonna go out praising God eventhough I was really frightened . I know I should not have fear but I was because I've never felt so strange. I prayed for a while again and then I got this devotional book that am reading and the reading for Tuesday was entitled Filled with the holy Spirit, I was like wow, wow wow!!! It had this verse in it:Ephesians 5:18-19 Let the Holy Spirit fill and control you. Then you will sing psalms and hymns and spiritual song among yourselves, making music to the Lord in your hearts. Wow again! I thought that in past worship I had encounters with the Holy Spirit but I had never expereince anything like I did on tuesday morning. I was definately not in control because all I wanted to do was sleep but the Holy Spirit had something else in mind for me. All I can say is HALLELUJAH HALLELUJAH JESUS. I asked the Holy Spirit to forgive me for grieving it sooooo much becuase I have been doing that alot
 . OH God not my will but yours be done. I am all yours, use this empty vessel for your honor and glory father. Am at your feet committing my soul to you, giving you all PRAISE.
You know wa? am really excited now bout what God as plan for me. 4月8日 Deny Self, bear the Cross & Follow ChristHere on my bed, in pain (cramps
 ) and thinking bout my spiritual growth and other stuff. The Lord is truly working in my life and like a potter on the clay, I can feel him molding me. Last week sunday the president of the international gospel choir of acadia (IGCA) announce the board for the next school term and the Chaplin position was revealed to be mine. I want to say that I was 100 percent happy but honestly I was not. Why? Well the spirit of fear has always had a dominated part in my life and also I lack confidence in myself. Thoughts of me not being adequate or equip for the position clouded my mind, I also felt unworthy. Even though I had those thoughts in my mind I still wanted to give it a try but the battle in my mind was so intense. On Wendesday during prayer meeting I went up for prayer and by Gods grace the spirit of fear along with what ever else was bonding me was broken, and I became a free person from fear
 .Praise God and thanks to the vessels(Jayson & Rob) he has anointed with the power of prayer. I felt so good afterward, wow it was a sweeeet feeling. I cried so much my eyes were blood red, but those were tears of being free, God was cleansing me. OOohh thank U Jesus for sweet relief! Rob asked me to repeat part this verse from Nahum 1:9......affliction shall not rise up a second time. Don't think I have ever said a verse from nahum ever in my life so when I got home I went to read the book of Nahum(first time). While reading chapter 1 verse 7 caught my attention:The Lord is good, a strong hold in the day of trouble; and he knoweth them that trust in him. I was like wow thank u Jesus I needed that. Its a blessing to find comfort in his word. Thats why its important to meditate on his words dailey to strengthen our faith in him. Deny self,bear the cross and follow Christ. To have fellowship with Jesus and experience his living power is not possible without the sacrifices of all that there is in us and of this world of sin. Before Christ left this earth he asked his this disciple to deny self, bear the cross and follow him. This same charge goes to all that believe in Christ. The Holy Spirit tend to reveal things that are in me that I need to get rid off but man its like every time I ask God to take this certain thing away something or some one comes and provoke the same thing that am tryn to get rid off. At times I want to refuse and not give in but at times self takes control.For me to be a true follower of Christ I must be like him for he is my example. When I gave myself to Christ the old man died and I became a new creature in Christ Jesus.
Sorry but am in pain so this blog might be all over the place. I just hope ur bless by reading it. 2月23日 another blessing:)BdayHey all:) guess wa?? Its ma 26 birthday 2day! Yep 26 years ago the Lord blessed my parents with a 5lbs premature bony baby girl yay me lol. Wow. I want to give God all the glory and honor for blessing me with such a great gift as Life:). Man I am sooo gratefull for seeing my 26 birthday cuz alot of ppl aren't so fortunate to see such a day.
Well I wanna thank my friends at acadia for being supportive and very caring, man I love u guys. Thanks going out to my family, I love and miss u guys, and most of all I wanna thank God again.
My life is urs to do whatever u want father. 2月9日 Death to selfAm Kinda hesitating on writing this entry cuz am sleepy, have a headach and blurry vision, but something is forcing me to write this but i won't call no names (think its the holy spirit) lol.
Oh k let me get down to business. Last night I had a dream, weird and scary as always, anyway this dream had many different parts and in those parts i was either running or screaming or both. Sometimes when i have dreams like that I would force myself to wake up and sometimes i would end up waking up in a dream and not in reality(creepy) and then i would end up back to the 1st dream or previous postion in that dream, in this case that happened, I was tryna runaway.Well anyway in this dream I was in a room with demons in form of humans, they were trying to attack me or something and I was like am not afraid of u, I can defeat u, all I have to do is call on the name of Jehovah and Jesus. Well I tried to call Jesus name but it came out has a whisper, while doing that I was trying to crush one demons jaw and hurt an other(can't remember what I was doing to the other but i sure wanted to inflict harm) While I was trying to harm them its like their power was dwindling of slowly and I felt as if I was getting weak also, in my mind in the dream I was like why aren't they going away, I call on Jesus name and I was like whats goin on? So am like come on Cynthia wake up wake up, and I got up but into reality this time. ( I sure do have some realllyyy creepy, weird dreams)
I was confuse about that dream so I prayed and ask God why did he not come to my rescue or why I did not have the power to bind those demons. Well I did not get an answer right then but as I was turning my lap top off I was admiring a picture of me on my desktop and bam it came to me or so God spoke to me there. This is what was said to me " See the reason you did not defeat those demons is because you are too much into yourself" Oooookk! I was like mmmmm true and ask for forgivness.
If you read the paragrah in blue u will notice that there are alot of I's. I will do this, I will do that etc. I think in that dream I was a lil cocky lol. Anyway its that sometimes when we think we have arrived at a spiritual high we assume that we can do anything and get complacent or self-righteous. In the dream I was figthing the battle that Christ has won already for me and all I did was call out his name but it was a whisper. That goes to show that eventhough am calling on Christ I am still fighting and I sould not be fighting. Its like am sayn yea Lord I trust you but I still gatta make sure for myself that they dead etc.
This has me thinking and thinking hurts for me lol, could the dream serve as an unconscious meaning to my true relations with Christ? Do I truly trust him? Do I completely have faith in the Father Son and Holy Ghost?. I know that I trust and have faith in God and I say it with my mouth but just like in that dream when it was whispered I think thats how it is, a whisper of trust and faith from my heart. Wow! Believe me you I do trust and believe in God because without him I would be nothing and would not even be here writing this entry. I guess God wants my faith and trust to go much deeper than that and for that to happen self must die.
I was reading Mark 10:19 -20 2day and it says"19I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. 20However, do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you, but rejoice that your names are written in heaven." Christ has given us as Christian the authority to do wonders but then we tend to get excited and rejocie that the spirits submit to us but in essence its to Christ they submit.
Father forgive me for not 100%ly trusting u, please help me rid self.
2月2日 Buckleys( or bad tasting medicine on the whole)Who likes Buckley or taking bad tasting medicine like raw aloe? Well if you do hats of to you cuz I sure don't. As a child my mom always had to literally struggle with me when it came down to getting me to take medicine, specially if it tasted bad. Even now as an adult she still has lil struggles with me lol. Ah I love my mom
! She would be like" here take this, its gonna make you feel better or help prevent you from getting sick. Some times she would bribe me with mcdonalds and ice cream(was and still is a greedy child lol) and it would work sometimes lol. Oh k am deviating from what I was beginning to say lol."Buckleys, it taste bad but it works" thats buckelys logo but now they have this new commercial (well its new to me) that shows people from different ages taking the buckleys medicine and making some serious funny faces cuz it taste bad lol. Well anyway night before last I was watching TV and was worrying about something. I was like "God I know you know my situation and that I should not be worrying about it but its consuming my thoughts" Well the situation was not in my thoughts until that day because it was getting closer to its deadline. Well anyway Buckleys commercail was on and its new jiggle is "Don't worry its gonna be alright" I was like wow God thanks. God was speaking to me through the buckelys commercial lol. Its like the bad tasting part of the buckleys is my processing or trial or me showing patience and the good part of the buckleys that helps with sickness is my reward for going through or enduring that bad taste. I look at it as if God is gonna work in me and for me I have to be patient and taste some "bitterness" in order to get the "sweetness"
I ain't ga lie but its hard, but its stupid for me to even think of it hard because over and over and over ...again God has provided for me no matter what. I guess my human tendencies will always come up to work against what God has already promised me. Sometimes we want things on our time but God works on his time, the time he thinks its best and truly needed. I guess it all plays apart of self wanting to be satisfied right away. OOrighty then starting to be an emotional wreck here lol(not really,just slighty)
Thank U God for always being here for me and for being my everrrrrrrrtttthing. By Gods grace am gonna drink that buckleys with eyes wide open and with a smile(lol). NO matter what happens I know that I serve a just and faithful God. So folks thats my word words (lol) of encouragement or motivation hum hopefully anything good lol.
p.s let me know if i make sense or if i have grammatical erros lol
lots of love, kisses n hugs 1月20日 The coins in my pocketThis thought just hit me after I finish purchasing breakfast.
All this week since i get back to Wolfville I have been complaining and wishing to myself that i had atleast 10 dollars so I can bye some meat or atleast canned tuna. (See I have craft dinner and noodles already all i wanted was some meat to go with that) Well anyway I kept on complaining and wishing up untill right now. Guess why? Well see am a blue berry bagle with strawberry cream cheese lover and I like to wash that down with a nice hot cup of tea with cream. So for like 3 days out of this week I have been purchasing that. My jacket had/have some loonies(canadian coin dollar) or tunnies(canadian coin 2 dollars),quarters, dimes,nickles and pennies, lots of loose change. The first day when i got breakfast, it cost $3.55, boy I was happy that I had those coins to pay for it. I was kinda suprise I had the 3.55. The the second day
same thing, thats another $3.55 and the third day, which is today 3.55. Now it does not take a math major to get the accumlative of how much money I spent, well I got 10.65. Yep more than what I have been wishing for.
I hope u get what am tryn to say. All the while I had what I was wishing for but because I had it in pieces I did not relaize it. I wanted the whole and not parts of the whole but those parts formed the whole that I wanted(yea kinda confusing lol). Now am like wow I shoulda count those coins and I could have been eating ma tuna or chicken lol( am a meat lover), I guess it serve me right for not appreciating wat I had under ma nose all the time.
Anyway let this be a lesson, learn to appreciate the little amount u have cuz it might just be enough to form the whole u want.
1月18日 My FeetMy Feet My feet. Yes thats my feet.
Take a close look at my feet. What do u see? U see a scar on top of the left foot, a scratch and a bruised kinda deform toe on the right foot. Also u will see that I have not been taking care of my feet, u can see all the crust n yucky hard stuff lol. Call them ugly if u want but they are still my feet.
The reason for writing this blog on my feet is because they have an important story to tell lol(speaking feet, crazy). Here it goes. Feet speaking " Our life began in the womb as part of the fetal. To let our presence be known we started kicking. On the inception of birth we came out kicking again, ofcourse we was not alone, we worked with the other parts of the body that cried and that made fists. Well time went by, we got bigger and got into alot of trouble. We are gonna give our stories seperate now". Left foot" Yea am the one with that lil bump t bump scar. I got that when me and my twin went where we were instructed not to go and while walking I bumped into a drill. Goodness I had never experience such pain before and I got so numb.Right foot " Well am the one with the lil scar and kinda disfigure toe. I got my scars by climbing fence walls with barb wire, got lil pieces of flesh torn here in there, nothing drastic but still painful." The reason we are all crusty n stuff is that we got too lazy to clean ourselves and stubborn to ask for help from the other parts of the body. Anyway thats our life story, well atleast a short version."
No people am not insane lol. Am using my feet to illustrate Christians behaviour or even human behaviour on the whole. For our safety and well being we are instructed by love ones or even total strangers on the right path that we should take. Well some times we obey and other times we totally disregard what was said. Its just like God speaking to us, giving us guidelines to live right and to keep in the path of rigtheousness. But hey we tend to be stubborn or harden our necks and do what we want. Sometimes the consequences of those choices are detrimental or they leave scars that can never go away. Then we want to give whats left of oursleves to God, but praise be to God, for he still accepts us and love us no matter how we look or what we have become. Therefore I know God loves me and my crusty feet.
God is calling you my friend, harden not your heart to his voice. No matter what circunstances u maybe in, God is waiting for you. There is nothing He can not fix, after all he is the creator of everything:).
Father its me again, please lead my feet in the path of righteousness, 4 they r already bruised from taking detours. 12月19日 Sisters wedding!On December 17, 2005 at 11:00 am, at the Baptist Bible church located on soldier road, my sister Adeline Louis tied the knot with Mervyne k. Knowles.
Yay my sis is now a married woman lol. Oh my, the morning was bright and beautiful, not a cloud in sight. My sis was a beautiful bride and she was so radiant, by Gods grace everything was beautiful and close to perfect. Brides maid had on a lovely red and white dress and Grooms men had on black n red tuxs.
I am happy for Adeline and Ian, I wish them both all the best. Adeline is the first child/daugther to get married and she is the 3rd eldest, I am the 2nd. So my parents had mixed emotions but overall they are happy for Adeline. She will be missed * sniffles*.
Now ppl are looking at me and wondering when is my time but am not checking for them. I am waiting on God and whatever he has plan for me I will accept. 12月4日 sigh God of mercy I pray for the spirit of discernment, wisdom, knowledge and in all of my getting I pray for understanding
as well. Help me to deal with uncomfortable situations in a mature and spiritual way. Guide my lips and speak tru this empty vessel, for I am truly nothing without u.
11月27日 Get kicked out the library lolOh wow last night was my first time ever getting "kicked" out the library lol.
Well I went to the library round 6:30pm and I decided to stay until 11:30pm when the shuttle arrives, so I went on the 3rd floor. Well like 10:55pm this stupid bell gone off and it was soooo annoying, i though it was probably one of the students doing something crazy. Then in 5 mins the bell gone off again, man i was so vex (island term for angry lol), I suck ma teeth and said shhh. Am trying to get my studies on then this lady comes walking in and she approaches me and said time to go, in ma mind i was like wa the hell this woman talking about time to go where?? I ain ga tell ya that i was bout to act freakish/krazzyy there lol. She must have seen my expression then she said the library closes at 11:00 tonight. Well oh my goodyness I don't have to say how embarrass I was! I packed my back pack so fast. I was like ohhh so that was those bell sounds were and she told me yea. Like the first bell is to warn students that its closing time in 5 mins and the second bell is to let students know that the library is closed. I felt like a dumas lol geez!
Anyway am looking at that experience as like God giving us many chances to come to him or to get out of a bad situation we are in. We tend to get comfortable in ourlives when we think we have "arrived" at a spiritual or status point in ourlives. He then gives us a warning bells, we sometimes shrug it off or we listen to it. In that situation at the library, the first bell I shrug it off. Then am back to focusing on studying/msning. The the Lord gives a second warning the second bell. With that second bell I got annoyed cuz it was disturbing my studying/msning. Well sometimes when God gives us warning we don't heed to it cuz hey we are happy and comfortable and we don't wanna loose our focus on what we are doing or have accomplish. Then atlast the lady came searching for people that are still in the library to tell them that its closed. Well she can either represent the angel of good news or the angel of bad news. God spirit does not always strive with man, there is a point where it just gives up because mans nexk tend to be harden and has a heart of stone or in my case man is too comfortable. Another thing that ladys coming could have also represented the coming of Christ " its time to go", question is where will I go?? is it out of my comfort zone?? Well I know only God knows the plan he has for me and therefore i must always trust him and accept his will.
"If you can use anything Lord you can use me" =)
Thats all peeps I hope ur encourage or motivated to get out of that comfortable place and being focus with self. Remember we can do all things tru Christ who strengthen us. 10月17日 *$#@%%@Those words have to be censored and to be cleansed from my mind. Right now I feel screwwwwwed to the max, yes school freakn stress. I mean it might not be such a big deal to some ppl but right now its a huge deal to me. See i studied so hard for my statistic midterm last week, I did the exam and i truly felt as if that was an A. Crappeth I got the results 2day and I got a B, hey I know its much better than last years result but man I had my hopes on that A so much.
Still am gonna praise God and give him all the glory for that B. Thank you Jesus and forgive me for being so ungrateful.
Now I have to study for 2 midterms that are this week, by Gods awesome grace I will do exceptionally well
 p.s after writing this am feeling better, i think writing a blog is very therapuetic lol. I am pathetic lol mercy. 10月16日 What a weekend! Praise GodThis is strange, I am not one to sit and write what goes on all the time but wow I've seem to be getting in the grove of writing a blog. Well its about my man, my homeboy, my lover, my lawyer and most of all my Saviour. I speak of no other than..whoooop whooop! Jesus Christ!. Man God is good all the time and all the time God is good. That statement never seems to fail.
The Holy Spirit was truly manifested this weekend in my life and what a great weekend it was. Starting from choir practise friday night, my church on Sabbath morning (Saturday), the IGCA jungalis float ride, and to top the cake of with singing at Emmanuel Baptist Church in Hammond Plains.
We sang three lovely songs: "Because of who you are", "We've come to Praise him" and "Bless his holy name/Praise him. What a blessed opportunity it was for us to minister to Gods people and also to oursleves. Man the pastor of that church is sooo jokey, but he tell it like it is n if ya don't like it TOUGH lol. The sermon was based on Daniel 3:20 and entitled "In the Middle -Freedom-. Pastor Lennett Anderson elaborated on the three courageous Hebrew boys and how we should emulate their faithfullness to God. He said that in the middle of it all there is freedom,similar to how the guys where in the midst of firey furnace and they were no longer bound but free. In the middle of it all God came and delivered them. Pastor also reiterated what Jesus said in Matthew 16:18..." upon this rock will I build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it". He said that Jesus did not say that the church won't be attack, but he did assure us that the gates of hell shall not prevail against us. HALLELUJAH Jesus! So whatever situation your going through face it, don't run away for freedom is in the middle of the fiery furnace. Amen.
That was such a good sermon and I can say it has impacted me in a special way. I know I serve a God that is able to deliver and in Romans 4:21 states that... being fully persuaded that, what he (God) had promised, he was able to perform. Also Romans 8:35-39, what can spererate us from the love of God......nothing can speperate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Be encourage my brothers and sisters in Christ and for those that don't know him please get on the band wagon, please don't get left behind.
God I want to be with you in heaven, with the angels singing, with love ones but yea I want to be with u more.
Thank you Lord for this beautiful weekend, I have truly felt your presence and I know that am not alone inn whatever I am going through. Hold me Jesus. Love you my Lord. 10月14日 Striving for excellence in Gods Holy nameWow oh Wow! Praise be to the King of Kings, Lord of
Lords. Praise be to Jehovah, the eternal one, for his
mercy endureth forever more! Gods presence was
manifested tonight at choir practise, what a
blessing:) Wow am in awe at how God works on his
time,how he loves me, how he provides for me, how
he gives me good grade and many many much
hows he has done for me and my family.
God my plea is for me to be beautiful like you each
and every day of my life. Help me father to rid
myself of my greatest enemy, me. For vanity,
selfishness, fear, anxiety, fleshy desires are all a
stumbling block in my pathway of me being who
you want me to me. God I ask for the Spirit of
excellence and perfection, I desire another level
with you oh Great One. Father annoint me,
cleanse me, touch my lips with coals and purge me
with hyssop. Father I might not be an eloquent
speaker or a song bird but use me in anyway you
see fitted, help me to maximize my spiritual life so
that I can be a blessing to others. Use me as you
have used Moses, Joseph, Daniel and many others.
God oh great God please be with the International
Gospel Choir of Acadia. A bunch of young people
that desire to be fill with your spirit and that are
willing to be used. Father take our hearts and mold
it, take our will and conform it, let Jesus be seen
through us.
Victory in Jesus name. Amen
No need to fear just conquer in his name |
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